Summer is ending which means back to school. Never in the many years I have been going to school have I found it a place I want to be. I simply don’t fit in, never have. My social circle have always been small, teachers have either looked down on me or thought too much of me, I have usually liked the subjects but not the way the teachers have been teaching them, and I have always felt lonely. I feel into my depression when I was in elementary school, I were bullied all the three years I went to middle school and in high school I finally hit raw bottom. But it is not until now that I have been starting to get help for it. Last week was the first time I got to see a psychiatrist. She makes me feel slightly uncomfortable and is pushing me to tell my parent even though I have told her that I do not want to. So far all she wants me to do as a treatment is to ‘become more social’ which is not so easy since I am also quite an introvert. But that becoming social should be a whole treatment does not make sense to me. Life sucks, a lot, but it is those little things that makes me happy that keeps me choosing life over death. Although some days I am questioning my choice.