Abandoned

They have left me, those who use to call themselves my friends. We have been fighting before but this time I do not believe it can be fixed. For a period of 2-3 weeks they have been isolating me from them as a group which has made me feel alone which then have lead to me isolating myself from the world. Last night I had a little fight with my best friend were she declared that she would abandon me, the thing was that she did not realize that she had. This morning the rest of them said that we had to solve it but I had said everything I had to say. It was then it happened. One of them yelled at me saying that they have been there for me at all times during the last 3 years, the thing is they haven’t. They have left me alone so many times but I have always forgiven them every time since I do not have anybody else. Now during my darkest time I do not even have them, I am completely alone. For the last 2,5 years I have lived since I do not want to hurt them or bring them pain, but now I bring them that because I am alive. The tears keeps trying to escape my eyes but I won’t let them, I cannot let them see how much they hurt me. There is no longer anything for me but my writing and listening to music. They are the only two things that will never leave me.

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